I've been back to work for three weeks (two part-time and one full-time) and it has been pretty uneventful. There was a ton of stressing out in the days leading up to my first day back, which generally caused me to be grumpy with everyone all the time. Once I actually entered the office, it just seemed as it was before. No big deal. I worked Wednesday and Thursday only and was home with the kids again on Friday the first week I went back. It wasn't until Friday that I cried. I just couldn't help it! Dean was all smiles Friday morning and I lost it. Those precious little smiles were what I was missing out on while I was at work and it made me really sad. Then he started to cry and I snapped out of it.
The best part of returning to work has been feeling like a full fledged adult again. The worst part of returning to work has been all the pumping. All day. Every day. Sore nipples. Breast is best or that's what they say. I will tell you that I was not completely against using formula to supplement when I went back to work. I really thought it was going to be really tough to pump enough everyday to meet his needs and I wasn't about to kill myself trying to make it work. And then I researched formulas that would accommodate a dairy and soy sensitivity....and I renewed my commitment to exclusively breast feeding my son.
Well, that's pretty much all I have to say about going back to work for now. It hasn't been a whole month yet so I'm not completely overridden with guilt but I'm sure that will come in good time.
|See the crazy that these kids have put in my eyes?|