Thursday, August 14, 2014

Hi Ho, Hi Ho....

It's back to work I go.



I've been back to work for three weeks (two part-time and one full-time) and it has been pretty uneventful.  There was a ton of stressing out in the days leading up to my first day back, which generally caused me to be grumpy with everyone all the time.  Once I actually entered the office, it just seemed as it was before.  No big deal.  I worked Wednesday and Thursday only and was home with the kids again on Friday the first week I went back.  It wasn't until Friday that I cried.  I just couldn't help it!  Dean was all smiles Friday morning and I lost it.  Those precious little smiles were what I was missing out on while I was at work and it made me really sad.  Then he started to cry and I snapped out of it.

The best part of returning to work has been feeling like a full fledged adult again.  The worst part of returning to work has been all the pumping.  All day.  Every day.  Sore nipples.  Breast is best or that's what they say.  I will tell you that I was not completely against using formula to supplement when I went back to work.  I really thought it was going to be really tough to pump enough everyday to meet his needs and I wasn't about to kill myself trying to make it work.  And then I researched formulas that would accommodate a dairy and soy sensitivity....and I renewed my commitment to exclusively breast feeding my son.


Well, that's pretty much all I have to say about going back to work for now.  It hasn't been a whole month yet so I'm not completely overridden with guilt but I'm sure that will come in good time.

See the crazy that these kids have put in my eyes?
What's the hardest thing you have done for the ones you love?